Trapped∞heart

Are you sure you wanna read it? Then, don't judge.

I have typed a one whole chunk of text containing all my feelings but i guess i probably won't post it. Feeling so helpless and lousy now knowing that you are unhappy and stress and I couldn't do anything to make you feel better and share your burden with you. Perhaps in your point of view, I'm adding on to it instead with all my insecurities, fears and I'm not being understanding enough. I guess i'm just bad in relationships after all that I have been through, getting hurt all over and over again and having such a bad experience with cold replies. I'm just so bad at handling that. Maybe it's just me... starting this "problem".

Nonetheless, I love you my dear boy and i hope that we will be okay. I don't want to bother you with all my texts. Seeing you being happy again means a lot to me...even.. if i am not in it. After all that i have been feeling recently, it was so much better telling myself that it's not the first time anyway that someone is going to "give up on me". I don't know la, that's how i am feeling now.

Oh.. What have i gotten myself into again?